That sounds unhealthy. I actually talked to my doctor last summer about depression and it turned out that I had it. It runs in my family. But I was prescribed some magic medicine and it really helped a lot. In fact, I never would have been drawing and uploading things on this website if I hadn't done anything about my depression. Whatever's bugging you, you don't just have to accept it and deal with it. You can find a way to be happy, even if it will be difficult.